Early nerves

I'm 50/50 right now on excitement and fear.

Part of me wants to start planning what to buy, planning names, the birth etc and the other part of me is absolutely petrified of losing this baby. Every pain, every twinge. Every time I go to the loo I expect to find blood.

I'm now "officially pregnant" according to my partner having been the GP to book in as it were. She was lovely but I did find it amusing when after I said "I'm pregnant" she goes "Ok and is this a good or a bad thing?" - guessing the smile on my face wasnt big enough huh?